Well since no one reads these anyways ha ha. I will just say that I have joined another religion upon my quest for the answers. This is the religion of light and sound. Its goal is to obtain freedom of the soul so that it may become a co-worker with god. This is called Eckankar.
Yes and I know that the founder of the religion basically combined, Sikhism, Buddhism, Hinduism, and other forms of enlightened religions into one. I think some of it is laughable, but after you try to take it seriously you cannot deny the ability to soul travel, proof is in the doing and thousands and thousands are now doing.
It sounds like some bizarre new age cultist thing. But no one is worshiped. God is revered, but no one is worshiped. It is nice. Will I stick with this stranger path? Time will tell but knowing my history….